This past year we started the year in one place and ended up in a totally different place. This time last year we were living in London, I was working full time and trying to care for our ever demanding young family. Ben was continuing down a very emotionally destructive path and was showing little to no improvement even with therapy from local child support counsellors.
Mid spring my grandmother past away, this was a great loss to the family and she will be missed, her passing however led to huge life changing decisions that led to me quiting my job of 10 years and moving to Ingersoll into her home that had come for sale through the estate.
As noted in previous blogs, Ben has improved..the smaller school has really made a difference in him. His teachers have even said that he is a different student now then when he began! That alone makes everything else worth it!
So here we are..now we have a brand new year full of new challenges and changes to face together. What will life throw at us??? Hopefully all good things!
At the moment I am spending my days caring for the children, this is a full time job in itself.
Soon however my unemployment will be running out, and I am facing another possible life changing decision. I have the opportunity to go back to school with the government retraining program. I have to get more details on the program, but it presents a great opportunity to get into a new career path. However here lies the problem....I don't know what I would like to study...I have spent my whole life NOT planning a career, or even thinking about college...I really have no interest in it....but how do I not take advantage of this???
Another decision would be sending my baby Isaac to school in September...this would be the all day everyday program...this would also involve taking a bus to and from school...this makes me sooo nervous. He will only be just turning 4...just a baby in my opinion.
I was not planning this at all...I was just going to stay at home and be with the children..even if in school, being available to pick them up when they were sick...or for lunches..home for the holidays or even having the option of keeping Isaac at home for an extra year. Perhaps doing daycare in the home or even start regular auxiliary pioneering were some of the plans I thought of...I am so undecided..I wish there was a clear direction for me or someone could just tell me the right thing to do.....grrr.
