I struggle sometimes with that very question, at times I feel like just packin it in. I feel so overwhelmed with the stress of living up to expectations of the majority, it's like climbing a slippery hill. Just when you think your getting to the top, you slip right back to the bottom.
My dear sister Candida gave me some great advise, I just don't know how to apply it. She told me that I need to learn my limitations and listen to them. If I can't get it all done in one day realize the world isn't going to end if it's not.
But here in lays the problem that I have, how do you live like that? How do you allow your house to go to a trash heap? How do you not do the laundry? The dishes? Bathing the children? How do you not go to work everyday while your children are being raised by a stranger? How do you learn not to care what others think of your parenting skills?
I just want to curl up and go to sleep in a corner, but how can you? I have to many people that rely on me. 3 little ones in particular.
Maybe I think to much of my role in life, but I can't keep the thought out of my head when I am feeling this way, what if something were to happen to me? Why is it that others don't see me in that way...I guess I am just drained, overspent, is this how all mothers feel?
I need more time in the day, or a full time nanny or housekeeper, need to win the lottery....Wish that I had more time to do things that I want to do, to have a bit more me time...more then just the left over minutes at the end of the day.
Well that is my story today...I am having a very blue day. Feel sorry for me, wish I were YOU day.
But after all is said and done, I do love my Children and my Dear Husband and pray that they will always feel the same about me, even during my bad days.
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