Decisions

So we are at the 2 week point of Ben being on Vyvanse 20mg's....I can honestly and happily say that I have seen some pretty amazing changes to Ben's personality, a glimpse at my boy I always knew was there, buried behind a wall of behavior he couldn't control.
He is much more controlled in school and is able to think through his urges to misbehave. He is making better choices. He understands how his behavior in the past was not acceptable, and even shows remorse.
He's not 100 percent better and may need a slight increase to help round off some of the rough edges, as his teacher still reports some misbehavior and unwillingness to co operate, but definitely an improvement.
I have definitely noticed his lack of appetite, some difficulty falling asleep, he also has been talking in his sleep. The most noticeable however has been is heightened emotions, he cries very easily and even sees life from a very sensitive view.
He asked me "Mom, when a toad or frog gets killed, does it's family members come looking for him?"
all through tears. He also has expressed concerns that his prayers are not being heard, because he feels his past bad behavior has made God stop listening.
This vulnerability is a refreshing change in him, showing remorse and concern for others...as heart breaking as it is to hear him questioning his relationship with God, I see this as an improved sense of responsibility for his actions. He really had no sense of what this meant prior to Vyvanse.

I do feel that he needs another week to adjust to the drug, and am hoping that his side effects will level off a bit more before I increase his dose to 30mgs, or I may choose to keep him at 20mgs as his ADHD is manageable.